job

sooo on monday was my first day of my first job. i was a bit nervous but im used to it already.
been doing a BUTTLOAD of pedicures. and only a few manis. no acrylics yet cuz i gotta learn how to use that machine DX ugggguuuuu i HATE how i have to buy my own stuff. i also hate how i need to pull my hair back cuz it gets in the way if i do pedis. like im not a ponytail person but guess i gotta be now. also i HATE how i can like NEVER have cool nails anymore cuz im always doing other ppls nails n mine get ruined...
*sobbing*
today i ad to practice acrylic nails more..on my own hand which i hateeee. i didnt want to but i was forced to. i dont like wearing acrylics cuz i dont need them. my natural nails are long, healthy n strong. but acrylics ruin them. i put oil on my nail first so it wouldnt stick on that much n my manager said when i take it off it wouldnt ruin my nail, but my nails look like CRAP now. sigh.

my pay is pretty bad too. its commision of 40% right now, itll go up as time pass but you know. yeah i get tips n stuff but srsly minimum wage pays more than what i'm making. i work 10 hours a day n prob make around 20-30$(not including tip) pretty suckish right? well i only get paid if i get clients. if i dont get any i dont get money. ugghhh literally my whole paycheck is prob gonna be spent on equipment i need T_T even if i end up at 60% commission depending on what i did that day it prob be like 50-60$ only still.....

idk. is it worth it? my manager talks like everyone make big money but when i do that math it doesnt really seem like it.

my 2nd day was the worst. it was really busy after lunchtime til we closed n i did 5 pedicures nonstop. 6 hours straight of pedicures. my arms were SOOO sore from giving massages and my back was killing me. like my arm were numb, couldnt feel them. on the last client i was trying to hold back tears cuz i was so miserable. before i went home my manager was talking n i just start crying cuz im sooo tired and in pain. i didnt get to eat or drink cuz there was no time. ahggg and it was already like an hour after the shop was suppose to close. so she hugs n tries to comfort me. geez ive been such a baby lately...crying...not just the single tear but full on sobbing. yeah n when i get in the car i just let it all out cuz no one can hear me(hopefully) and i drink my water and take a few bites of my sandwich but i was just so SORE. i just stayed in the car crying for like 10 minutes cuz it wouldnt be good if im driving n start crying lol. when i got home my parents were worried cuz its late n when i explain to my mom i start crying more lol. omg this seems so pathetic but you dont even know how much i was suffering. so i had my mom massage my dead arms but she didnt really know how so it wa really wimpy massages n still crying on/off.

but after that day its been better...i'm just really slow at the procedures. im still working on it. the clients seem nice n understanding since im new. idk how some ppl finish pedicures in like 15 minutes. i take like 45 minutes cuz i wanna do a good job. the co workers seem nice. everyone besides one girl is old enough to be my mom. and everyone but me has an accent cuz im the only one with english as their native language. the vietmanese and chinese ladies omg their accents are really hard to understand. if i dont know wat they say i just smile n nod lol.

hmmm but i'll prob work for a couple months. maybe til the end of summer or something to get enough experience cuz idk if i can live like this. half the day at work, one day off each week. i come home at like 8 and eat dinner, shower, computer, bed. i wish the salon wasnt open everyday. hurrgg. but yeah maybe once i get better customers i'll like it better. cuz honestly i dont give a crap about doing acrylics. its nail art that i LOVE. so hopefully ppl will come to me for that.

now for not job related stuff:
on tuesday since i had a day off julian came over n i cut his hair. i still need practice doing guy hair. i like cutting hair. its fun. i need my roots done. isabel better be able to do it on monday. oh yeah so anyways jlian let me borrow DMC4 cuz ive been wanting to play that game since 8th grade but now that i have it omg i srsly will NEVER have time to play it cuz im always working!!!! and when i get home i go on the computer. i dont got tiiime for the TV anymore. but on my day off maybe. i still gotta finish hakuouki AND BBS aaahhggg and some rpg horro games to how did i get so backed up?

oh and like last week isabel would reblog this thing on tumblr that ive been wanting to know wat its from for like 2 years and i now now its litchi hikari club and OMG ITS THE MOST MESSED UP MANGA I HAVE EVER READ. like i thought higurashi was bad but no, this is WAY worse. just whhyyyyy wats wrong with these ppl. they are MIDDLE SCHOOLERS. but at the same time, i like it lol. omg its really disturbing but there were lots of feels too(good and bad). i liked it. i want to read bokura hikari club or w/e its the the same story but different? but i refuse to read that at night cuz i wont be able to sleep. but i get off at 2 tomorrow so i can read it!!!! if i remember lol. if anyone is reading this post pleaaassseee read it. but brace urself. its really bad.

life

soooooo last week my seifuku came in!!!! wheee!!! its the first cosplay i've bought and only $11.50 TOTAL!

and the quality is better than i expected.  thought itd be supperrrr crap material n stuff since its so cheap, i mean its not THAT great but i think its ok :) and fits perfectly!

ok so the past few days my life has been a swirling vortex of pain and suffering. soooo i went to an interview for a nail salon cuz i like doing nails. and the ppl there seemed nice n stuff(even though they are way older than me) but IDK. like the manager was like 'everyone working here is only manicurists and the past cosmetologist usually end up wanting to do hair more in the end' and i just kept thinking about it. like that really opened my eyes for 'is this what i REALLY want?'. but idk she made me kinda take some clients to see how god i was before she hired me so i had to put back some rhinestones on this lady's hand, do gel nails on a workers fingers to show i know how to do it, and do nail art. and shes like mkay i'll call you.

but when i got back home i was very confused...because i like hair AND nails and maybe i should be doing hair cu i have a license for it, not for just nails. and my mom prefers me working with hair. so i'm confused and even being on tumblr i still felt sad n stuff so in my room i decided to pray for some help for the right choice then i just start crying. idk why but i lost it and i felt so pathetic for crying at something like this.

so the next day the lady called offering the job but  was like 'hey u know ive been thinking about what you said n can i get some time to think about my answer?' and it was fine but i only had like 2 days but anyways that same day i went to the mall's hair salon to try to see the manager for an interview, but she wasnt there and the position i was going to take but filled but another was avalible so i tried applying for that. but idk i NEVER get calls back for hair salons. i feel they want experience but dont got any. but anyways at the mall i bought some crcle sunglasses cuz ive been wanting some for a while now

i like them!!!!

so anyways after a LONG though i decided to take the nail salon job since they are offering. but idk, i like doing nails but mainy nail art. i dont care about doing acrylics and stuff. and idk after i told her that, i was like 'is this really wat i want?' cuz i dont feel excited or anything.....maybe im just nervous cuz its my first job? yeah so i have to work from 9:30-7:30 uggguuu thats 10 hours straight and idk about days off cuz the salon is open every day. im going to be SO exhausted when i get home from now on. goodbye sleeping in til 11 T_T

別に......

so my life is boring as usual. applying for more hair salons instead of nails this time(cuz hair gets more $$$ plus the salons are in the mall so prob more walk ins) but havent heard so ima talk to the skool lady again and ask if i should just walk in? cuz i NEED money. like there are so many things i need to buy!!!!!

i have money, but i need MORE! the new hakuouki game comes out on may 6th for the ps3 and i NEED TO BUY IT!!!! but i prob will buy it once i get a job so i wont be one of the first ppl to play T_T cuz it'll be like 30-40$ and i feel like ive been spending so much money lately....

i bought a light blue seifuku!!!! it was only $11!!!!!!!!! including shipping!!!!!! it should arrive next week or something im so excited! first cosplay! its prob kinda crappy but hey its cheap and its not like i'll wear it all the time....

 so idk i randomly remembered this sock hair curling thing and decided to try it. im pretty sure i did this in junior or senior year but it didnt work cuz i had layers or something but since i have long layers n my hair is long i was like wat the hey. plus curling my hair with an iron takes too long cuz my hair is long and THICK. so when i do curl it i cheat and put my hair in pig tails first lol. its hard to explain....but its a LOT quicker

but i dont really like putting heat on my hair cuz i like it healthy so you know...

anyways sleep with socks in my hair. wasnt uncomfortable or anything. i slept fine.

 heres ze result! kinda sucky pic but i have another pic of me at the bottom.

I like it! some curls were kinda awkward shaped but overall it looked nice and my hair was really fluffy too(voluminous). i looked amazing in a ponytail lol

i was bored and decided to dress up all pretty n take pics ^_^

i bought this sweater thing at some thrift store for like $5 and omg i loooooveeee it! i think its so pretty. i really like the gold/black mix. dang that thrift store had some quality clothes for a good price(unless the thrift store i usually go to with 95% crap clothes and it takes a full moon to find a hidden treasure) like there was this AMAZING blazer for $8 but it was waaayyy too big.

ok i'm gonna stop talking about clothes now lol

 gotta love fashion~

hmm yeah omg so like all these gyaru mags are shutting down! did i write about this already? idk too lazy to check but EGG IS BEING DISCONTINUED!!!

like DOOD. that n ageha were like the last GOOD gyaru mags left but they are dead now!!! NOOOOO!

im so sad T_T

hey so heres a mirror pic. i usually don't take these but i think i look decent. seeeeee!? my hair looks so nice!

omg...im listening to lots of japanese music nowadays. its gotta just be a phase....

its not just like anime songs but normal music o_O

last night i randomly looked up tegoshi yuya and heard a solo song by him for the first time and.....i actually really like it XP dang ive been watching this guy on variety shows for years n never knew how good he was.

ITS JUST A PHASE!

idk i feel too weeb/nerd listening to japanese music....but its prob no big deal. not like i can understand it but  like the tune.

gotta get back to my trance.

chichi chichi oppai

eaarlier this week went to a "hot spring" with my mom n dad. but its more like a pool...just sulfur water n stuff

but it was nice. i like the steam saunas

i also was bored n dressed up all uniform-y

out of like the 100 pics this s the only decent one T_T cuz bad lighting but i didnt wanna go downstairs to take pics cuz my brother was there n it wouldve been awkward..

heres my outfit. yeah i need to clean my mirror so i can take mirror pics cuz its all dusty so deal with this

last night i talked to this one japanese guy on skype with voice call. i was kinda nervous at first but it was ok after a while. it was a bit hard to communicate at times cuz we didn't know certain words or whatever. yeah i didnt speak much japanese just when i write sentences, i gotta think for a while and so it takes time to think how to say something so it was mostly in english but some japanese lol XD

yeah he had an accent but i probably did too looool. he asked me what my dream was and i said 'to be a model' but he didnt really understand so i kept trying to say it clear and hes like 'mado? mado is window' LOL so i had to be like MO DE RU and hes like ahh!! then he says his senpai in high school is like japan's #1 men's model and i looked up pictures n stuff n hes like super famous or something thats so cool!!!! but its more high fashion stuff i like that gyaru stuff.

aaahhhhh im not good at speaking i felt bad T_T i'm better at writing japanese....

poopiee

ok lets seeeeeee

havent been doing much

I have a leather jacket that i FINALLY studded after like 8 months or something lol. dang it took a while cuz the leather was thick so my thumbs hurt a lot :(

I will post a pic later. also made a cute bow accessory too!!

dang i havent really studied japanese this week T_T or played hakuouki either x.x

buutttttt omg!!!!!! [nerd time]

i found a site where u can download a buttload of drama CDs OMGGGG

drama CDs are like my life right now LOL

aaaahhhh~ so i downloaded this tsujisaki gakuen thing that i have been DYING to listen to the whole thing for months!!!!! and its mine now!

lol yeah its r18 ahhhhhahahahahha sshhhh

ok im old enough to listen to these kinds of things dont judge

hubbbyyyyyyy 

hes the only normal guy in the series, and he actually likes you(and worships you pretty much hurhur) unlike the others that are like really freaky and make u their slave n stuff 

omg lollll this prob sounds so creepy but i swear its not

omg and last night while i was showering i was like 'hmmm....i wanna take one of those are you sadist/masochist quizzes'

IDK the thought just randomly appeared and i think im pretty normal but if i had to be one prob more on the sadist side cuz i love bossing ppl around and hate being told wat to do n stuff lollll

there was one where its like 'how evil r u?' or something and i got a high score for mildly evil omg wat am i doing with my life

for some other quiz its different stuff but even though ive never done anything i think this would be right

-dominant- LOL

omg i could not stop laughing getting these results

dude all the comments were all these masochist girls like dang there are a LOT out there o__O

but that 'beating me up makes me happy' stuff is just weird. like no.

yeah sorry for the weird post to anyone reading

kawaii

today i hung out with elizabeth n did her makeup n stuff

i dressed up cuz for kawaii international theyre having a kawaii leaders contest again n i wanna enter but idk if im kawaii enough. well i have til the end of the month so we'll see...

 heres my outfit today lol.

i got the body shot, but i didnt get good headshots cuz i was taking them by myself so they look too selfie and there was like no good lighting either T_T geehhhh

we went to harveston lake. i felt so weird going out in public looking like this n elizabeth is all normal looking lol

but whateverrrr

omg this is my new fav japanese word:

ガキ [gaki]

which means brat

but when u say クソガキ lol well u can look up the translation LOL

OMG and this one japanese guy im talking to, i saw a pic he sent me and he TOTALLY reminds me of that old creeper in the train station in japan looooooollllll

but i dont think its him cuz 2 years ago he would be 26ish but that guy was prob older. just the tan n facial hair lol. omg theyre so fun to talk to

rkrnjk

ok ok

last night, after like 14 hours, i'm FINALLY at chapter 2!!!!! WTF!!!! RIDICULOUSSSS!!!

i honestly can not believe it took me that long. omg just think how long its gonna take to just finish the game DX but srsly, i learned like 30 kanjis in that time and memorized the kanji for their names n stuff too lol. i'm getting better i think. when i was playing it earlier today i didnt need to look at the paper i write all these kanjis down that much....but it still took like an hour to read through this one part D:

dang i will be SO PISSED if i get a bad ending or some dumb ending like i end up with serizawa or something after all this hard work(just like tokimeki memorial)

im sure by the time i finish a route i SHOULD be able to read it faster and my japanese will prob be better

anyways so i have lots of lang-8 friends on skype n ppl talk to me n sometimes i talk in japanese n stuff. theres some guy that is like flirting with me. lol. its really funny. like the other day it was his birthday so i said happy birthday n hes like 'i want a birthday kiss' like, i dont even know you but i was like 'chuuu' anyways ahahaha. then he said if i was next to him wat would i do? so i said give him a card. and hes like can it be a card that gives me permission to make out with you?' like wtf omg ahahaha. i dont even know wat he looks like but watever. not like im ever gonna actually see these ppl.